i have never been fond of group projects; in fact, i despise them.
though i am a team player, i do not feel comfortable having my grade dependent upon someone else's ability to perform. it stresses me out. i like working alone. especially when it is convenient for me and not for four other adults who are also jugging school, work, volunteer hours and family/social life. while i was registering for this semester's classes, i somehow assumed this semester would be different.
it isn't. out of the five classes i am enrolled, four currently are working on group projects. yesterday i met with two different ones and the meetings were very stressful. the lack of progress from everyone was very frustrating.
i came home and felt very overwhelmed with my lack of progress and the amount of other assignments that must be completed before friday. i then started worrying about next fall and how i will be a single twenty-four year old no longer enrolled at byu, searching for a full-time job.
my future is overwhelming.
since my parents were out to dinner and no one from my apartment was home, i figured i would sign onto facebook and see if i could vent to someone.
that lucky person just happened to be miss english muffin herself: anna hayes
after exchanging greetings, laughs, and a few stories, we talked about what was bothering me. i asked her if i could vent and she of course obliged, and i shared with her my concerns.
she responded with this:"sometimes we think we have our whole future planned out and that we know everything that we want. however, one day we will wake up and everything will randomly change. then, everything that we have ever wanted will become irrelevant." she continued, "everything in life is outlook. you can choose to be happy or choose to be sad, and i believe it is more fun to be happy. as long as you are happy, then your future will unfold even if it's not what you planned."
even though it was something that i already had been taught, it was exactly what i needed to hear. (pretty wise words for a foreigner)
lots of changes have been happening in my life and they will only continue to in the next few months. this advice will undoubtedly help.
it may even help you. think about it.
you are right. it helps. i needed that reminder for today
ReplyDeleteLife. Gotta love it. Don't get down on yourself. You are great and I am glad we are (still) friends :) Hope to see you soon.
ReplyDeleteA wise man once said "This too shall pass".
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